Your heart just breaks, that’s all. But you can’t judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you.
We can’t fast-forward time to know if it’s worth it.
 So we trust our hearts and hope it turns out right.
And it may seem like we have nothing much to talk about but sometimes it’s nice not to have to talk.

Maybe sometimes, you'll feel sad. Or maybe happy, frustrated. Being a human being, we all are similar as we are selfish. Childish at times even when you're an adult. We as human being, get jealous. Of course you cant say that you dont. And things change around us every single day. Sometimes, we dont wish things to change and we dont wish to do certain things but we have to. We didnt ask for bad things to happen. Maybe this was all god's idea. Maybe he wants us to learn. Not in education, but learn to gain self confidence where people cant help us. But WE have to help ourselves to move the obstacles we stumbled on.

If you cant tolerate my nonsense anymore please tell me. I dont want you to tolerate. Cause I care. Its not that I want to tell someone about the bad stuffs and sabotage you. But I just cant I really cant concentrate in my studies if things were going to be the way they want. I didnt complain. I was hoping that someone could help me move the obstacle I stumbled on. If you guys thought that I complained it in purpose then I'm sorry. I dont wish everyone to get into trouble. I dont wish to lose friends. I just hope to be friends with everyone. Those whom I dislike. Those whom dislike me. And for stuffs that changed. I dont wish that to happen. I dont wish people to say things about me even if you're my friend. Thats why you dont appreciate it. Maybe we should talk to one another. When we're not satisfied with one another. Not scratch behind my back. Yes. Learn to forgive and forget. But people have scars in all sorts of unexpected places, like secret road maps of their personal histories; diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don’t. Some wounds carry with us everywhere and though the cut is long gone, the pain still lingers. I wish that everything could be the way it use to be but without trust and cooperation we cant.

Dear you,
I know that you are frustrated with what I did. Like what I've said I didnt do it on purpose. I was just hoping that someone could help me move the obstacle I stumbled on. Maybe you said stuffs about me to someone else cause she stared at me when you were telling her. Yes, I know that many things happened with this 2 month. But did you take a walk in my shoes? Do you understand me? Do you think I'm so stupid to wish things to happen? Yes, I cant but I'm just jealous. I admit. Cause you someone important to me. You're part of my life. Maybe you think that you can settle it on your own but the truth is, you cant. Its like I'm being kicked to a corner. If just we could understnad one another, there wont be gaps.

Dear you,
Maybe you've told someone else about the things I've told you. I know you trust me and the same goes to me. Most of the times, you and I have the same thoughts. You know it well.

Dear you,
Maybe you're not the same old person I knew before. Your friend asked for it. If you were the same old person and you were the one who replied things wont turn out this way. I've forgive and forget about it. But you? You didnt. I'm sick and tired of everything. I just hope that we'll all be friends. Forgive and forget.

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.
So yeah. I'm aware that I havent been blogging for ages. But the reasons are that :

1. I've been busy.
2. School work has been piling up like crazy.
3. I've had my heart broken.
4. WAY TOO LAZY.
5. Busy with Common Tests.

So now, common tests are over and camp is coming. 4 more days. I'm so excited. But I've had been busy finding and buying stuffs for camp. Its gonna be a 4 days 3 night camp. Many things going on. And learn to forgive and forget cause you'll just grow older as in having wisdom hair if you're gonna carry on being angry or you dont even understand. I'm not referring to any one. But these words just popped out in my mind.

And I didnt ask for things to happen. Its just that... Its okay WC knows it. If she's listening to me. Haha anyways, 2 MORE DAYS TILL haha I LOVE YOU! OMG

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who created it. And surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget about the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.

Today was fine. Had a chinese new year celebration after recess and it ended at 11.15 am. Thats too short for a concert. Had Geography lesson and went home. Then, went to Suntec City with mum at 3pm and we each got ourselves a pair of high heels. And I got myself 2 shorts and a small bag from Cotton On Body. Walked around and we went to MS. Ate KFC, got myself 2 necklace from Diva. So summing up, I spent like 100 bucks today. Ohh and HQ went back to malaysia. ): Imma miss her much. WC is leaving tomorrow too. EC, I'm not too sure. Imma miss them. Anyways, Happy Chinese New Year and have a good trip to Malaysia my friends! (L)